Being average

If you were from my circle of friends, you would know that I'm always somewhere slightly above average or average in terms of studies. I've never been the top scorer mainly because I'm pretty lazy if I so admit it myself. I've never finished reading any of my text book until I got to Form 6. I liked Economy back then so I finished reading that book (for the first time in my life). I can walk into exam hall, reading only HALF of the whole syllabus but I looked like I've read the whole syllabus 10 times. Nobody believed me when I told them I was clueless. Mainly because I've never like failed so badly in my exams. I somehow scrape through every exam with a B. As are only for subjects that do not need lots of reading like language and Maths and Moral.

Entering university, I continued being an average students. I don't do too shabbily but lecturers don't exactly remember me for my academic achievements (not that I have other achievements to brag about).They either remember me for being very loud and noisy or other reasons but my achievements.

So imagine my joy when my own supervisor told me that she is proud of me that I pulled through with the course and dissertation. I've only had a handful of teachers who were proud of me like my English teacher (Pn. Yee whom we affectionately called her pineapple head) and...I think that's all. Some had high hopes for me but none actually felt proud of me. She told me that I was just a few marks shy from getting into the Resource Room (with a B+) and looking at how I was adopted and now I'm just few days away from getting my Master's Degree, I'm glad I made her proud.

And to hear it from my supervisor is even better cause I used to think that she is slightly scary. So I was grinning from ear to ear the moment I left her office until I bump into the boyfriend at the gate cause he cycled over to accompany me back.

I need to write this down in my blog because it's not something that you get to experience every day. I hope I made my family and the boyfriend proud as well. All Glory to our Almighty God. He has blessed me throughout my time in USM. Now it's time to venture out to the world and glorify His name (after I had my break =p)

Procrastinator

I am a perfect example of senang-senang dahulu, susah-susah kemudian. Basically rolled on the bed and watched drama last week and now I'm staying up late to work on my thesis cause I have to submit them to my lecturer tomorrow. PURRRRFECT! *buries head under my thesis.*

My first sign of freedom

I have officially passed my Viva which means if I do all the necessary editing, I will be graduating with my Master's Degree in April!!!!

Of all people, the boyfriend should know best how hard these whole thing was for me. I have not imagined that it will be this hard but it was a bumpy ride all along. It doesn't help that I procrastinate a lot and my attention span is almost non-existence when I was doing my thesis.

I was literally working on my work from morning till the next morning and then take a few hours sleep and wake up to continue for about 2 weeks straight before I finally submitted my work (which also resulted in super late lunch for both boyfriend and I). The weeks after that was filled with baking, resting, cleaning and selling fruits before CNY. Then CNY was filled with going out, eating and doing nothing. Then I came back to prepare for my Viva and it's officially over!

I praise Lord for everything He has done for me. Without Him, this degree is not even possible. I have always been the last person to get any scholarship and this time around, I was only late by one semester. Praise the Lord that I do not have to fork out a lot. Then I smoothly passed all my papers despite being clueless in some of it. When I registered for my dissertation, I was among the few who found a topic last minute yet had to change my supervisor and find a new topic all over again within a week as my initial supervisor had enough in her plate.

I was going one room to another to look for lecturers to adopt me and my current supervisor kindly adopted me. She took up my first topic and guided me and walked with my closely till I submit my work. I am forever grateful for her as I didn't want to be under her initially cause she seems scary. But she is a real angel at heart and if this is not God's will, I don't know what is. I mean I had my own plans but God brought me to the one He has prepared for me.

Then during my Viva, I was among the few who had it the easiest and came out the quickest. I went in and briefly (and I mean briefly) explained my dissertation. My examiner was on sabbatical so I had another very kind-hearted lecturer who sat in and read out the comments. There was no questions asked and the dean and deputy dean had no questions for me too. So I was out within like 7-8minutes? And then 2 minutes later I was called back in and the dean actually said that it was the quickest deliberation they had and gave me a PASSED!

This is truly His plan and His mighty work. With my human effort, and my human nature, I cannot have made any of those happened. All Glory to Him.

Now I'm just working on my editing to get it submitted to my lecturer by Monday. Then we can discuss if there's anything else to edit before we send it for printing and get it ready to be submitted by 12th March! Last lap!!! Got to finish it strong!

This lengthy post is to remind me of how faithful God has been in my life, throughout my Uni days. =D And No, Master's is NO JOKE.

Redbull

Paid RM2.60 for it to keep me awake throughout the night. In the end, Redbull sat on my table from 10.30pm to 5.30am cause I went to bed at 10.30pm. Wasted my money. But nevermind, decided to take it when I woke up at 5.30am to do work cause I'm still mad tired.

Walao, don't know how people can drink it. I mean it taste nice, but it gives me this headache like the one I got after drinking a whole cup of over-sweetened lychee at floating market in Hatyai. I think it's the sugar. Too much that it makes me feel sick. Once I'm done with this whole presentation thing, I'm gonna blog about Hatyai, every bit of it!!!

Just let me get over with this presentation okay? Lots of things to do and so little time!!!!! Thank God for awesome supervisor though. Helped A LOT! I know it's God's blessing. He knew what is best for me and prepared this path for me to get to know this lecturer better and work under her. And because He has helped me in this, I have faith that He will pull me through. Just gotta finish up my part, present and let Him take over! Now, let me continue with my work so that I can nap at 10 or 11 later.

Queen of Procrastination

I can sit in front of my computer whole day and not get anything done. It's supposed to stress me out and push me to do my work but I don't know why this time around, it's not as effective. Used to be able to churn out 5-6 pages of stuff in just one sitting (until 3am). 5-6 pages is A LOT since there's a lot of reading and digesting to do before I can write anything.

This time around, just one paragraph is taking me whole day!!! This is bad!! I need to get every information done so that I can do my slides when I'm back from Hatyai on Sunday. Monday I will have to meet my lecturer and face her fury. Ok la, she's very helpful and nice, seriously.

Totally freaked out. So today, I decided to delete all the easy access to my twitter account and facebook. Just for one day. To concentrate on my work. I give myself until lunch time to finish two parts and until dinner for another part. Then I'll take a break. Seriously!

Our days are numbered

Very biblical right?

True our days are numbered. No doubt about that. But the one I am talking about is the one my friend posted on her gmail status.

Few days earlier (or yesterday, not sure) she put up, 'time is ticking away' (or something like that)

and today, she posted

Indeed our days are numbered. Cause we have to vomit out some proposal for our dissertation in two weeks' time or face the fury from our lecturer!!! So lots to do, little progress, lots of panicking and I hope that is suffice to get me working harder.

Off to bed early cause I've had a long night yesterday and has not recovered from it. Looks like the boyfriend has to be in charge of cooking with Jamie tomorrow cause I'll be off in the library.

Thank God I know He is there to guide me and He has great plans for me. Good enough to keep my head up high knowing that He has them all planned.