Down lately

No, not down as in down syndrome. Lately been feeling a little weird. I don't feel like doing what I always do, don't feel like doing much, been really emotional as in cries very easily * I actually cried while watching tvb drama just now.* , been feeling really tired and feels like giving up at any point. I suppose I am reaching the peak point according to my MUET textbook and I don't know any ways to distress. Actually, the main problem is that even though I can distress, it'll come back in a snap. And then I will go through all the I-wish-I-am-dead process again. I hate that feeling and I hate feeling that helpless. It makes me moody, makes me lose a lot in life. I don't want to be like that. But can I fight STPM without feeling this way? It may take me about 8 days to complete STPM. 8 days at least and I am hoping that I can fight this like a man girl. I am feeling all the giddy giddy nausea thing again. It is scary, seriously.

Can suggest ways of keeping stress at a healthy level? Share your experiences with me. Lately, many things happened and it is breaking me down even more. Seriously, I am even breaking down because of some reality show contestants didn't make it through. And I have been really worn out. I mean I dream every single night, mostly a forgettable dream or worst still, night mares. I wake up in the morning feeling like I have not been sleeping, having dark rings around my eyes, I rarely have that. There are nights when I can't sleep and have been thinking a lot. Thinking is not a good thing for me because I tend to think of rubbish that I should not even be thinking. Consequently, I have been late for school pretty often lately. I hope any SGGS prefects read this and forgive me for being late, stress is catching up with me. =(

When I am unhappy, I enjoy listening to songs. Chinese ones. And if you are also into Chinese songs, you would have known that they have lots of very sad and touching songs which triggers my tear bud. I am close to crying and I just don't like it. When I feel sad, I tend to hop onto my bed and sleep. Even if I can't sleep, at least I can drop a tear without being questioned by people. I hate being questioned. I am not dealing with my stress well and I am not ashame to shout out loud that I NEED HELP!!! =(

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Benteng rocks,

Emmoes rocks too. =) Bentengs is my form6 clique. I love them to bits. They got me present, not buy, but made me a present. I love it. It will be the first deco up my wall when I move into new house alright? I really love them and I am really thankful to meet you guys. Emmoes and Bentengs are the best things happened to me after my family. I enjoyed your company so much that I start to wonder how I will pull through my Uni life without you guys. I hope any one of you can be with me in Uni. Then I would be so so happy. =)

Anyway, Emmoes are my form 3 till now clique and I love them to bits. However, today's topic is on Bentengs. I felt something was fishy for a week already. They started giving Annie their personal pictures but they did not ask from me. Its either I am no longer in Bentengs or they are doing something behind me. Then they started passing around papers and Annie started asking things from Win. NO ONE ASKED ANYTHING FROM ME!!! ='( Anyway, I thought my birthday is over and I guess they are not doing a present for me like how they did for Cheng Ling. Hee, the perasan me stopped being so perasan. So I go to school like normal, kacau Win like normal, laughing like normal until they don't even let me open Annie's wallet. I mean if you get to hold a friend's wallet, a close friend, sure open one right? Swee Win was so panicked when I wanted to take the wallet. I feel something is fishy again. I started complaining that they are doing something behind my back and stuff. Then Shan asked me to go toilet with her. I followed her. When I got back to class, teacher was in there already, I hurried to my table and started taking out graph papers. Then she gave us questions and I have to clear my table to do my work. My table is always in a mess. I realized that my table is extra messy today. XD Imagine, a messy table is extra messy today. No eyes see. Anyway, I realized something is on my table. A green box. What is that green box doing on my table? *will put up the picture of the box later, have not taken the pic*. I opened it and tada! *update with pics later. Lol, damn potong steam*

So they did me a present and I love it. I love the pictures and it will definitely be one of the deco in my room. Go till where oso bring ok? Hee. Anyway, this is the present

Front view is their picture *don't mind the messy room*

Back view is the messages. Fits my deco plan which I have in my head. =)

I am so lucky to have all of you in my life, to color it, to add spice in it. I guess I did good deed the past life. Love you guys. =)

Sushi Outing

Our school had been the host for the Chess Competition recently and there are guys all over our school. It is really weird and hard to have guys in your school when all your life, you grew up in an all girl school. Anyway,I brought illegal things to school and so I had to keep them in Annie's car. Decided to go Sushi King with Shan and Win after school as there's promotion on. All on the belt at RM2 per plate. We were rushing like mad. Actually, I was rushing like mad. Running from the class to find Annie, got the car key, run to the car, get my stuff, run to Annie and return her the key, run with Win to find Shan Shan, Win led me to the wrong way, and then run back to find Shan Shan. It was a runny day. Hee, ignore my language. Anyway, Win bought karipap and we shared one karipap before going to Shan's house. Got to her house, bathe, run like mad again, changed, run down to her car and she drove us to Prangin. Her dad sat beside her.

My model-Swee Win. With her sushi

Reached Prangin, look into Sushi King, I love empty Sushi King. It wasn't too crowded and we made our way to Sushi King. Sat down, started eating. RM2 on the sushi *rice-based*. Win was acting rather crazily. No Sam, I did not take much on the food because we were busy comparing which sushi is bigger. *Win's idea.* Our eyes were on the belt and nowhere else. =P

Just like this. Hee. See? She did not eat the one she took and she was eye-ing on more sushi. Like they are free. =.="

We ate bout 7 plates each and we were too full to continue. Probably because we were laughing too hard at Swee Win's lawak acts. We then left Sushi King for a short shopping. There's nothing more attractive to Win than advertisement banners for food outlets. If you are a Penangite, I am sure you've been to Prangin. If you noticed, they have all those banners with pictures of food, their menu and stuff right? That was what caught Win's attention throughout the whole time we were in Prangin. She will go, " Ah, I want to eat this. Eh? Sure don't want to go to eat tom yam? Hey, they sell this, I think sure tasty one." Tell me, where to find such a cute friend? XD *have to put this else she will scold me for putting up her pictures*

Swee Win with all our plates. Yummy.

Then my mum came and they left shortly after that. It was a great outing and I love mixing with Win and Shan. If Cheng Ling went, we would be the empat sekawan. Bentengs rawks!!!!!!

Presents presents presents

Got a present from Su Ling today. Wan Mei passed it to me. It was a lovely pink pencil box which I will never put a pencil in it. Am thinking to use it as something else. Pencils and pens will make my pink pencil box turning black. I love it. It is from Extreme and I guess Su Ling patronize that shop quite often lately. I can suddenly feel that we are all grown up. We used to chip in like RM 5 or RM10 per person to get a present especially for Emmoes. We used to grumble if we have to pay too much. Things are so different now. We used to think that if there's party, there's present, no birthday celebration, no present. No matter how we love and enjoy mixing with each other, that was what we thought is the right thing to do. When I found out that Su Ling got me a present despite no invitation to any birthday party whatsoever. Life is pretty hectic lately and I don't even have time to gather my friends for a birthday eat out. If I can go, I have some other friends who currently are taking some exams in their college. It is so hard to get everyone together. I have yet to plan any belated birthday party. I have no time for it. It sounds funny coming out from me. Anyway, I was really surprised to get presents from Win and Su Ling because they are the members of Emmoes and this is the first time I think, I get personal presents from them. Will treasure them like my baby, I promise. Again, thank you Su Ling from the bottom of my heart.

My pretty in pink pencil box. Love it. So pink and pretty. Me likey.

So nicely wrapped up present.

So after school I went to mum's office and we left shortly after that. We went to pass some documents and headed to the Padang Tembak post office. If you have remembered bout the surprise my second sister gave me in the previous post *click here*, I went there to collect the parcel she sent. I reached there slightly before 4 and got my parcel.

My parcel. All the way from NZ. Safely reached Penang on the 5th of April and safely in my hands on the 10th of April. =) I don't think the postman touched it. Thank you Mr. Postman.

I found things that I like in there. It is really touching to see them because it may be random but it shows that my sisters actually do listen to me when I tell them what I want even during normal shopping outing. They listen and they remember. I love them so much.

Things in the parcel.
:: Two boxes of jelly powder which I love. My sis say NZ's jelly powder is nicer. Hee
:: Two boxes of dessert powder, Vanilla and Choc. Who want to try? I cook then I belanja you guys. I love the cooking part.
:: MISO SOUP!!!!! I tried looking for them in Penang but I can't find those in small packages like this. I love MISO SOUP!!!
:: A homemade ice-cream powder or something. I am so excited to try that. Never tried cooking ice-cream on my own.
:: Three gorgeous looking necklaces. Though my photography skills might make it look less attractive. But I love them. Did I miss anything?
:: A love letter. Not the biscuit. Is a real love letter from her. So sweet. I love them all. Have yet to try any of the things yet. Who wants to try the stuff? =)





Back to the presents. I only take pictures of the two necklaces because another one seem to have a very thin chain and it keeps getting tangled up. Mum is still figuring out how to fix it. This is why I was so tired that day. Couldn't even update my blog. I spent 2 and a half hours fixing it and it got tangled up within minutes. I love the crown, the skull, the whole necklace, but the chain, so lembut. Will try to fix it and wear it. Love you Pao, thanks for the prezzie. I was and still am definitely showered with presents, love, hugs and kisses. Love them all.

ps: If you think you saw the necklaces before then yes, you did. They are from Diva. But mine are from NZ Diva. Still cost a bomb and my sisters spent a lot for me. Thank you darlings. =)

pps: My mum is so funny. She insisted on buying me things. The conversation was short but funny.

Mum: I want buy something for you.
Ping: What you want to get for me?
Mum: Bracelet maybe?
Ping: But I got lots of bracelets already. And I do not find any new bracelet that I wish to have
Mum: But then I want you to take picture of the presents I give you and post in your blog. Pao and Ying's presents are in there. *making her muka merajuk*

Lol. So I think blogging is good. I can get lots of presents like this. Hee

Post birthday.

Note: I have updated the 3103 is love with pictures. Click here to see them. Leave comments ya? The best feeling about blogging is having people to leave you messages. So please, make me feel good about blogging. =)
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Now that my big day is over, it is Ee Ming's big day pulak. Every year, when I stopped being excited over my birthday, he starts his. So yes, I wished him last night, when my day is over. Here again I shall say...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EE MING!!!!

He doesn't read my blog either. Hee.

I am gonna thank these people.
Not in proper order.

108 . wah keong . wei wei . win . Diana . che . mum . dugong . ling ling . su ling . june . grace lim . ah shan!!!!!! . win’s mum . ju-yen . ewe yan . angeline . chih heng . jas lyn . ngiap ai . cheng ling . yi yin. ying mei. su ching. jin ping . shu xian . swee hong . wan yin . yi lin . cheng yee . sook yee . penny . hui min . illy . pao . Kelvin . Alicia . kah min . aunty puppies . kla hooi . ter ren . siang ling . yuh jen . cuddly . mae hoe . jia hui . michy. everlyn . ee ming . chen seng . shin sar . sevvy . aunty jean . ostro . hooi chen . kaising . karen . tracy . susan . gopi . mugun . julie . monkey cousin . uncle . aunt . sun *the gf * . phei chuin . sharon . ee ling .those who sent me friendster testimonials . those who came into my blog and wish me . those I forgot to mention . those who wished me in MSN . Thank you everyone. It has been a great day and a great week for me. Thank you cause I can feel the love!!! * to be updated still*

Special thanks to Diana, Win, Cheng Ling, Jas Lyn, Yi Lin, Ngiap Ai and those who wishes me many many many times on that day. And let me be tai sai . Thank you Diana for featuring me in your multiply blog. Thank you Win and Cheng Ling for the necklace and card. Thank you Yi Lin and Ngiap Ai for letting me play the Poke-The-*insert your name* game. Hee. Thank you Jas Lyn for keeping my Doreamon tupperware. Thank you Che for the cake, the presents and the lovely dinner. Thank you. Can feel your love from here already.

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I shall re-update my Birthday list here. Check out if you got me what I wanted.

1. The Fahrenheit Book RM 39.90 from Popular. But I decided to make it my Mid Year Reward gift. So can cancel this out. =P
2. The hokkien book. The one got proverbs one. RM 20++, MPH
3. Ang Pow *lots of them* (got three quite big ones. =)
4. Surprises ( Lots of surprises. I am a happy girl. Eldest sis, Pao, Win. You guys rawks.)
5. Lots of love and huggies. *Got it from sis and mum*
6. One nice and a bit more expensive one bag. (got it from sister. read here.)
7. Birthday party with loved ones *friends and family* (Had one with family. Read here. )
8. Something that comes from the heart.

*updated*
CD List.
1. Lin Yu Zhong's In the Rain
2. Eric Lim's Left Side.
3. The Prince Yul one. John Hoon
4. the list goes on...
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What I did not list but I got.

1. The red necklace that I thought of buying myself
2. A Mickey watch.
3. Presents from Pao

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Some pics update. Don't ask me why I got messy hair. I didn't know when I was taking the pic. Besides, messy or not, it is still me. =)

Yi Lin, Win, Me, Cheng Ling, Jas Lyn *behind*
*front* Cheng Ling, Win, *behind* Me, Yi Lin
*same as above*

Us with the banner for the gathering. Win, Cheng Ling, Me, Yi Lin

Us in front of the spiderman, superman, shrek, banner.

My birthday

Well, the day started with a slight disappointment. I went to the post office but they were not open. My mum said its because it was the first Saturday and thus they won't be open. So we went to fetch Cheng Ling, get mum's thing and then go to school.Cheng Ling gave me a Birthday card and I love it. Cheng Yee shared the card too. I like Cheng Yee. She is very cute. Anyway, the message in the card was really sweet and as usual, very well written. As you know, Cheng Ling’s English is very the powerful. When we reach school, I was greeted with smiles by Ngiap Ai and Ying Mei. They wished me Happy Birthday and I went to see Illy at the front gate. There, she greeted me and made me listen to her oral. Then Cheng Yee and Sook Yee came and they wished me. This is so overwhelming because everyone starts greeting me. Swee Hong teamed up with few other friends and sang me a Birthday song. It is kind of shy for me but I really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. The day goes by like that. Win was asleep when I called her. She reached school 25 minutes after 9. She came in with a present in her hand. For ME!! Another surprise of the day. She keep on threaten me that if I kacau her, she will take back my present. Eeee buruk siku mia. Lol. Siau kia lai. Anyway it was the red necklace that I wanted to buy with her. In the Abu’s family box that she once said she wants to buy for me. So sweet. It was wrapped in 4 layers of newspaper. She said her Mum helped her. Thank you Aunty Judy *or Julie*. Inside the Abu’s box, there’s lots of tiny little paper stripes with words. She wrote them and wanted me to rearrange it. Will do it soon. Thanks for the effort and the thoughts put in. I love it. Seriously, I wore it for dinner.

That girl that I say is pretty jeling me. So now she is not pretty anymore. A bit also not pretty. Hmph. Then at bout 11.40a.m, Shan came to school and we go find her. But she got no time to layan me also. So nevermind la. We left and enter hall again. The gathering was fun although we cannot enjoy our day cuci mata-ing cause they are all very young. Oldest also at the age of 17. I am already 19 on that day. So it is kind of weird to look at kids. Yi Lin say I tai sai on that day and I start poking people. I am scared to go back to school on Monday now. TT I hereby declare that my Birthday is 365 days. So I am tai sai every day and I am free from being poked by many many people. >=) It was a fun day. At least I get to spend it with some bentengs. Oh by the way, I got a card from bentengs on Friday. Made by Annie. I love it. =)

Went home, online a while and then got ready for dinner. By the time I am done, it was already 7.30p.m . We reached Pinktail at bout 8.00. My cousin, her girlfriend, uncle, another cousin, aunt all were there waiting already. We walked in and I got ang pows from my aunt and uncle. My grandma gave me at home already. We ordered our food and got served pretty quickly. Everyone was enjoying their own meal and Sun *cousin's gf* was nice. I mean I do think everyone in the family will start liking her soon. Luckily she is very friendly and cin cai, everyone kind of having nice things to say bout her. I guess we will just have to keep quiet and mind our own business. Especially when she is a not bad person. In the middle of our meal, we heard birthday song and someone brought a cake to a little baby. We clapped to the beat for him/her*to young to know the gender*. I was terrified already. Because the song has this line, " How old are you now? How old are you now?"

Hee. So as soon as we finished our meal, my cousin started singing.

" Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Ping Ping,
Happy birthday to you.
How old are you now?
How old are you now?
Are you 81?
Or is it 91?"

So embarassing kay? I mean he mentioned my name, and then ask me things like this. So shy!!! I can feel my face burning. So shy I tell you. He is a little loud and was kind of making noise pollution but it was fun. Heh, at least it was special right? Anyway, soon after that they brought me cake. And played that song. I made a wish, took some pictures and blew the candle. There's a scoop of ice-cream with a chocolate cake. Very tasty but we were very full already. We then went back to my cousin's place to cut cake. A love shape cake that was decorated by my eldest sister. It was kind of plain and she decided to decorate them. It was alright. The cherries were a little messy because my aunt insisted that my sister use chopstick to put the cherries on the cake. My eldest sister is famous with her no-chopstick line. She cannot use chopstick because she is left-handed. It was still nice looking though. Then I had another surprise. A piglet bolster from Sun. I had one last year but it is dirty already. I stopped hugging it because it has turned rather black. Heh. So ngam that she bought me a new one with the exact shape and colour I like. She is rather shy but hey, I really love it. So it is alright.

Went back and got a call from Lemon. He forgot my Birthday okay? So sad. But nevermind. Hah. Anyway, Swee Hong called and clear things up. That's the end of my beautiful day, my birthday. Now, picture time.

me.win.yilin.chengling.jaslyn.ngiapai.beexian in school hall 0704 morning.

Birthday present from win. Wrapped in newspaper.

From win, lovely box. I love it.

The necklace. Not made of pearl but it is really nice. And she took the effort to use glass paper to wrap them. Thanks win.

Abu's family box. Yes, Abu is a boy. And Win is the frog on the far right.

The cake from Pinktail. May not look as yummy as it taste.

My heart shape cake. Self decorated by sis. The cherries and tiny love is done by her.

Enlarge this and see the red circle. I put that. Hee. Nice leh? XD

Imperfection is beauty. All the fault of the chopstick. Hee

me.birthday cake.mummy.che. The rest busy watching tv. =.="
Given by Sun. I am keeping it in the closet. Will use it when I move into new house which is still nowehere to be seen. XD