Perhaps

Just maybe,

There's someone out there who is the only exception for me.

Who gives me enough courage to risk it again.

To risk getting hurt, to risk being vulnerable.

Maybe God IS writing the best love story for me.

It feels great to feel hopeful for once.

To have hope for things instead of brushing off any hope and positive vibes people keep trying to inject into my life.

To doubt what people say and think of the most negative aspect of every single positive thing said.

Maybe it's time to stop torturing myself like this.

Maybe I am good for something too. God DID create me so I guess I must be good for something that He took the trouble to create me, right?

=)

I learnt

Today I learnt,

not to pour water down the little drain cause it might wet people's clothes.

T_T I'm sorry. I did not mean to do it. *beat hand*

Driving

brings out the crazy side of me.

People are scared. So to scare people, I just have to fetch them. =)

That sounds fun. Okay then. =P

Cheeky mode OFF, Nostalgic mode ON.

Miss those days when I'll sit in the car with my mum and she'll drive me to school or anywhere, and we'll sing in the car as we have no radio.

"Darling you can count on me
'Til the sun dries up the sea
Until then I'll always be
Devoted to you

I'll be yours through endless time
I'll adore your charms sublime
Guess by now you know that I'm
Devoted to you

I'll never hurt you I'll never lie
I'll never be untrue
I'll never give you reason to cry
I'd be unhappy if you were blue

Through the years my love will grow
Like a river it will flow
It can't die because i"m so
Devoted to you"

I wish I can faster master the art of driving and drive my mum around. And sing this with her. And if by God's will do I get married and have kids, I want to sing this song with them in the car. I love my mummy.

ps: Miss having mummy making me sing my Annie's song. ♥

Mask down

I'm stressed and scared. I think I've subject myself too much to people's opinions and criticisms. I know all that matters is God but it's so hard to not be bothered of what people will think. Or if it's not good enough, what will people think? Will people think I'm not prepared? Will people think I did not put my best?

Wait a minute. Count the number of times I mention the word 'people' and the number of times I mention 'God'. I need to get myself together and pray that God will guide me to plan this. It's supposed to be a fun outing where we gather God's people together and welcome them to our PKA family but now it's stressing me out. Am I losing the point here?

I don't know. =( All I know is that I don't enjoy it as much now. Need to find back my purpose of doing all these.

Mask up again. It's tiring but it's easier.

these girls are ♥

What will life be if I've not met them? Well, I wouldn't want to know the answer.

♥

Dreaming of our prince charming. I think mine is kinda cute, Diana's is a bit scary and June's just plain boring. =P Look at our expression. It's either I act best or their prince charming is not really charming after all. =P

My friends are so cute, I ♥ them. =)

Our one and only group picture but major ♥

Why do we always end up with same face? But ♥

Look at my greedy face. And Diana's super cute busuk face. =) *busuk face means face you do when you smell something funny. Not her face busuk. She very wangi one*

I do sad face. They say cute. Haih, even my students say cute. I guess I shall just be garang.

The art of camwhoring is that you can make yourself look as though you are not camwhoring.

The main reason we gather. Side reason is WE MISS EVERYONE!!

And June has been photobombing me the entire night. First with the penguin tissue, now with her own face.

I was telling my friend that these friends I know here is MUCH different from anyone else I've met in uni. Apart from them (except my family), there's is no one I can wrap my arms around or cling onto throughout the whole mall and still feel it's okay doing so. You know who you are. I ♥ the fact that we will automatically open up space for each other to slide our hands through our arms to walk arms in arms. And laugh at one another's joke and lameness and then create more. Even if we've not met for a long time, this still remains.

Thank you girls for the great day out. I needed it. It's just different to be out with you girls.

And the ones who are enjoying in UK, COME BACK QUICK. And the one in Sabah, waiting for you to come back for Raya!!! And the one in KL, come back or we'll forget you =P

♥ Ping Ping

ps: It's so funny when Diana said all of you were afraid of me back in high school cause I was always emo-nemo and garang-garang and I sang to her Amazing Grace with super terrible voice to annoy her. But she's not annoyed. I think I need to do it to Win. kekeke.

Mood swings

Raining heavily outside. Best to sleep in and just do nothing but roll on the bed. Had a terrible week I would say. I would love to blame it on PMS (which could be partially true) but I think deep down inside, I know it's me. It's just me. I guess it's easy to go out and meet people when you do it out of your free time and hard to go out and meet people knowing that it's a duty.

I missed being the carefree person who'll visit people and walk around USM like it's a mall. I really wish the passion will come back and not hide behind my tasks and responsibilities. I'm glad to have friends around me to pull me up when I'm down though.

Anyways, I have been BUSY BUSY BUSY, so much so that my roommates and neighbours started telling me that it's so hard to see me in my room nowadays.

I wished I can stay in too and not go out to see people. But it's my last year and there's a lot of things I need to do. I enjoyed my time being around my friends but I guess deep down, I need alone time. I need time that I can do things at my own pace, walk at my own pace and just be carefree. Has been a long time since I last admire the beauty of God's creation while walking to class. I guess that's what I need instead of running to one place to another and rushing to settle one thing after another.

And....I can finally blog!!!

I feel loved

and you know who you are. =) On days like this, one just can't continue to wallow in self-pity and hate self for anything at all because there's so many other people loving you and being there for you.

Above all, He had it worst but He still did it for me, why can't I do the same?

It's always a bliss to be in His arms.