Sem 2 Year 2 is over!!!

Over with exams!!! But room is still in a hugeeee mess. Need to clean up cause I'll be going back tomorrow.

Boohoo, lazy, drama first, later only pack la. Hee hee...

=) Now say YAY!!! Sem 2 Year 2 IS FINALLY OVER. Say hi to 2 months of holidays + Camp Cam. Lots of interesting things lining up for me. =)

Waiting for the girls to come back and bring back the bubbly me. Ok la, in uni also very bubbly.

The truth is

she's just chicken.

All the excuses carefully planned and crafted to make it seems like there's no way.

But under all these thick layers of excuses and pretense is just a girl who is afraid, who is hiding.

And no one is strong enough to pull her out, yet. At least that's what she believes.

Sometimes it's easier to say 'No', than to say 'Yes', puts her hopes high and be thrown down from the clouds.

Sometimes, she's tired and she wants to quit. But can she? Is she brave enough to quit all this pretense, to quit telling people 'No', to quit pushing people away.

Happy

It's such a great feeling after talking to someone that you know at the end of the day, no matter what happens, you'll have someone you can turn to, lean on and believe that He will never leave.

=)

It makes everything so much more bearable and easier to accept knowing that you will never be alone again.

Stress leads to cravings?

I used to crave for food during study week because that's how my system used to work.

Today, all I can think of is shopping. What is wrong with me? Instead of craving for food, I crave for shopping. Both is equally bad- food is bad for waistline *which is bad enough already* and shopping is bad for my pocket.

I'm so desperate, I think I will even be satisfied if I only get to shop at Tesco or pasar malam. I need to buy accessories, or clothes, or something. Anything! Not food though, I bought my dinner and the feeling is still there.

I think I'm turning into a shopaholic. T_T Cure please.

Wan Daun, Tree Mor

Hehe, one down, three more to go. =)

Can't wait for exams to be over but it means I'll be in my third year. *pulls hair* Insane!!

It felt like I just entered USM okay? So fast, two years already? *checks wrinkles in the mirror*

I'm so sorry to all my juniors. I'm sorry because I'll be a lousy senior. I hope I won't leave USM before trying Mamu Burger which according to his regular customers that it's a MUST try. I'm not a big burger fan so I managed to slide my way out each time.

I was just relating this to a senior. It feels so surreal that I'll be a senior soon. A third year at that. A third year who just took a wrong bus and got sent back to where she boarded the bus. A senior who still goes to meeting earlier cause she misread/mishear the time. A senior who goes to wrong meeting place. A senior who enters class not by knowing the classes but by peeping in to see if her coursemates are around.

Sometimes it felt like I take so little effort to be less blur. I just blur my way through and soon I'll be in third year. By God's grace, I'm blessed to go through each year with more and more improvements (not grade wise though =( Will try harder)

Apparently my line is bad enough that I cannot upload photos so, bear with me. When I'm home, I'm usually too lazy to update blog. Need.to.stop.this.bad.habit.

A packed but exciting sem break to come. =) At the meantime, study a.

You thought it won't hurt anymore

but somehow, it still does.

I guess it's better to leave it alone and it'll heal, eventually.

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Weather is insane, mind not right, mood not here, time all wrong. Haih, not a very good study break.

*Note to self: GO LIBRARY TOMORROW MORNING!

Beyond what I expected

I was complaining my workload, how I will not enjoy my birthday this year because everyone is just so busy and I, myself, am busy too. Expect less and you really get more.

The day started (12am) with me doing my assignments, when wishes come pouring in. LOTS OF THEM. Beyond what I really expected. I'm still replying to the comments on facebook and messages. I woke up today at 9am all grumpy and tired but I already told my friend that we'll go for breakfast. So I got ready and went to meet him at McD.

The day before another senior, sweet sweet senior bought me lunch. *touched* Anyways, after breakfast *which my friend paid for - thankyouawesomefriend*, I walked to the library, relaxed a little then I walked to class. Got wishes all over which lasted the whole day. Got a blogpost dedicated to me by Maureen, great great friend.

Came back in the afternoon, with over 70+ messages on facebook. You people are insanely nice I tell you. Replied half and got ready to class again, had jamuan, then they started singing to me. Whole class, shy.com. My face got red la, you know I blushes like nobody's business one.

After that, went for class, then went dinner with Wei, Kar Sin, Ding Ding, Woon Ching and Yoke Puai and they got me baby cupcakes. Huey Chian got me bigger ones. Cupcakes overload. So I brought some over to Wern's place to chia them. Got a small prezzie from Dilah and my awesomest friend - Rou En. loved.com.

Happy. Contented. I think this is what birthday is all about. Surrounded with loved ones who really cares. I am beginning to love my uni friends. I love Emmoes and Bentengz also okay? I think my BIG BIG heart is enough to fit another bunch of awesome people in it. =) And guess what, today is just the beginning of my celebration. Things can only get better from here.

Thank you to all who wishes me, hugged me, chia-ed me, made me feel special and all. There's no words in the dictionary that I could use to express how grateful and thankful and blessed I am to know you all. I cannot list out everyone cause it's just too many of you but I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

*insert photo* hehehe..Will do so when I got a more stable line

Love, the birthday girl.

Come to think of it, I've never celebrated my birthday whole day like this. Back in secondary school, it's only half a day then I go home. Then last year, I was at home and we went for dinner at night to celebrate. This is my first time celebrating whole day with my coursemates and my CF friends. <3 First time.

5th of April

2 more days and it actually felt ... nothing. Is it true that as you grow older, it has less and less meaning? Or is it just cause I still have so much to do that it felt nothing?

Great, I have classes from 12pm-7pm on Wednesday. Best gift ever.

And I need to stay up tonight and tomorrow night to rush my assignments and perhaps even Wednesday night and Thursday night. And once it's over, it's over. Truth is, there's no more a month's birthday. Not even a week.

And it doesn't even matter. I guess it's part of growing up. I've stopped being the childish me, wanting more cakes, more presents, more celebration. Expect less, get more.

Back to studying.

April Fool

I got boyfriend already.

*WHAT? People April Fool say they broke up with boyfriend, then I don't have one to break up with, so I had to April Fool people say I got a bf lor.*

Honestly, sincerely, really, confirmly, no-lie-you-ly, don't have a boyfriend. Yes, still single and unwanted. Wtcrap?!

Too old for April Fool crap.