Where are you?

 

If you haven't already know, we have not experienced rain for almost a month now.

Hills are burning everywhere.

It does not help that for the past month we have been happily playing fireworks and firecrackers.

So now it is all hot and sticky

And my throat is suffering from all these.

Hello, I have tiny nose okay?

My nose cannot take too much of these before it fails and gets blocked.

House Hunting

So we have been house hunting for a while now but not actively looking yet. We've seen a few houses. So far I've seen one that I like it more than the others but I don't love the location. Anyways, the house was sold.

Yesterday the boyfriend and I went to look for another one and let's just say I am okay with the location but I would love to have a slightly bigger one. The condominium opposite is 900sqft but also RM125k more expensive.

The one we saw is 700sqft. I am OKAY with the house but it is definitely not my dream house. And whatever that I envisioned my house to have..let's just say with that house, I can't have it. But...the price is a hugeeee factor here. With the unimpressive size, it's already almost RM400k. If I were 4 years older and I knew Daniel 4 years ago, I think I would be able to get a better one 4 years ago. With the current price, I could have gotten a 1000sqft one 4 years ago.

I cannot complain to Daniel cause it will break his heart and makes him feel that he couldn't provide. It's not him. I just dream too much. =(

House hunting SUCKS! =P

The Negativity

I try not to show this part of me on facebook cause I don't want to be judged. But at least I have a blog that is bot famous that I can write on and rant and then go to bed and not have to worry that I will wake up to a I-used-to-like-you-but-you've-changed kinda comment. Don't know how the famous bloggers do it..where do they vent their anger and frustration.

Today is a day where everything goes down the drain somewhere in the morning and then had a neutral point and then went down again. Sometimes all I want is just support and encouragements from people close to me,people who really matters..but time and time again,it felt like they matter to me but not me to them. Sucks big time. And I hate that I am so dependent to a point that it makes me hate myself. And I hate to think that the only person I can and really should trust, rely and depend on is myself. Cause it is not true!!!God is my refuge. But arghhhhh hate this negativity so much I want to cry but that will lead to more questions that I really don't need now. =((((

It's attacking us now

Was just few days ago when we were in our Whatapps chatroom, asking Jen Jen to come back as Singapore was hit with terrible haze. T_T Instead of Jen Jen come back, haze came. in 2006, my second blogpost was this.

As I am working from home, I have no air-cond and the smog is torturing me even when I close my curtains. I couldn't close the window else there'll be no ventilation although with this haze, it's better to have no ventilation. It's very stuffy and hot in the room. I cannot go out for fresh air. It just sucks, real bad.

I still have to do my work, go around and get stuff done. But will be getting masks. I don't care who are the one burning down forests in Indonesia, even if they are Malaysians. Just do something about it! Don't let them get away. It's not fair to punish those who did nothing just because their inconsiderate countrymen are at wrong. So don't have to report that it's Malaysian company who is burning down the forest. Just stop them. No one is saying Indonesians are doing it. More like WHY DON'T YOU ALL TAKE ANY ACTION?

Hate this weather. We get it EVERY SINGLE YEAR ok? So please, we have the right to rant. So what if you give us fresh air all year long (as though they are the one who give fresh air la. Only their country got trees and forest is it?), it doesn't mean it is OKAY to give us bad haze once in a while. You don't OWN the air.

Air Purifier will be one of the essentials when I get my own place.

Bad Customer Service

And these people are doing SERVICES OKAY?

Mad angry with these people. If you can't deliver, don't promise. What's with all the delay in refunding and then going into MIA when it's time to refund? Rest assured, you will soon lose business like this. Not only cannot settle my problems, refund also cannot return. Please, don't do services if you CAN'T PROVIDE SERVICE.

Big Bonus

I went to Sunday School this morning and I had to help out with the kindy since only one teacher left there today. Most of them were out of town or away.

I've always been in the standard 1-3 and the only problem we have there are chitty chatty kids. And maybe some blur case ones who look at you as though you are talking gibberish. So going into the kindy was a bit different cause the students are wayyy cuter. Like a 6 year old answering you definitely cuter la sorry older kids, I love you too. =P

So after like 30 minutes into the class, a boy said he wanted to go to toilet. So I asked if he knows how to get there himself. He said no, so I walked him to the toilet (not really, he seemed like he knew his way, so I walked him halfway and decided to go back to class cause I have 4 more kids to control). Thinking back now, I shouldn't have. Ok, no more such mistake.

Anyway, 2 minutes later, he came back, and told me, "Teacher, I mm mm in my pants."

And I was like O.O okayyyy....and said, "Go back to the toilet and wait for teacher okay?" and immediately signaled a more experienced teacher for help. I looked out of the class and saw droplets of little poo poo on the floor. So we had to clean up.

I rushed to the toilet to check on the poor boy. He stood quietly in the toilet. So I asked him to remove his shoes and socks and asked if he has stomachache. Poor boy said, "Teacher, no pain." So I said it's okay and removed his pants. Sprayed his bum bum. I asked if he wants to em em some more and let him do his business.

Then it dawn upon me. I am going to be a terrible mum and I seriously need training. Cause I almost puked when I had to wash off the poo poo from the pants. Thank God for another teacher cause she took it from me to wash. I cleaned the boy up and lent him new pants.

After that, I thought to myself, I will feel like puking when others do (even if I just hear it). I will feel sick if I smell something bad (like mm mm). I am bad to the point that if I enter a smelly toilet, I might come out without doing anything. And tell the boyfriend, "Baby, I can't." Initially he would go, "What do you mean you can't?" After a while, he finally knows my pattern and each time we would find a toilet high and low only to be greeted with me coming out and say I can't. Poor boyfriend. And he would be angry with me cause it's super unhealthy to keep my pee pee or poo poo in like that. T_T Sorry boyfie, I tried.

So I need more trainings. But that doesn't mean you should send your poo poo-ed child to me. Thank you.

So my big bonus today.

Job Searching Woes

You see, I don't do what I'm usually supposed to do. When I'm supposed to relax, I'll find 1001 things to do. Now that I'm supposed to read up my dissertation and try to justify whatever I wrote, I'm looking for jobs (something that I will not do when I'm free).

Now that I may get my Masters degree soon, I decided to check out some websites for job. Guess what I found? Admin clerks get better pay than say tuition teacher! You know how tough it is to be a tuition teacher? Seriously, it's not all happy and dandy. There's lesson plans, exam to plan for, students to control. There's a lot of hidden work that you don't see teachers doing in class. And to know that admin clerks get paid better is really NOT FUN! Anyways, not like I'm going to work for others as a tuition teacher anymore. Sick of getting peanuts when I have to do so much work. Tuition teachers (in tuition centres) are seriously underappreciated and underpaid, except for selected few.

The ones with good pays are those doing sales! And you know I can't sell anything which needs persuading. My persuasion skill is really working on the boyfriend only. Continues for job hunting because I don't like this feeling of being broke!!!

I just got my DropBox so I hope more blogposts after this with pictures from phone easily accessed.

Thank God

for boyfriend who cleans house and cook lunch.
for boyfriend who will cook whatever you crave for because you are so stressed up.
and for Thermomix to cook the thing I want to.

T_T I can't wait for it to be over but I don't want time to pass faster. Because I've a WHOLE lot more to do.

I need a nap.

=(

Burning Midnight Oil

Was complaining to my friend that it sucks to be the only one in the house who is still awake. The boyfriend is snoring loudly in his room I think. He has slept for 2 hours. =P Anyway, my friend (who stays 7 floors above me) replied with this


it's okay. haha. in desa u, got 3 people awake.

u, me n my sis haha

im not sure if pak gad awake cos i always see him sleeping lol

 

 

HAHAHAHHA MADE ME LAUGH...CAUSE PAK GUARD REALLY ALWAYS SLEEP ONE...
Can't wait for these sleepless nights to be over. During kindergarten, primary, secondary even until form 6 and undergrad, I never stay up whole night to do assignments. I usually get mine done much earlier and enjoy good night sleep while others have to work overnight. This time around, I have lost count of the number of nights I have to stay up. =(

Now, off to make some Milo.

Listen, don't complain

Just got my draft from my lecturer and she is awesome!!! I mean she is very dedicated and I'm really blessed to have her as my lecturer and supervisor.

But receiving the draft also means lots of work!!! I have to get everything done by 21st. Yep, that's next Monday. So be warned that I'll be in this room, on this seat for a long long time. I appreciate her getting the draft ready for me so quick with such detailed comments. It must have taken her lots of time to do it. /touched.

So 6 days, lots to edit. Hope I can make it out alive.

T_____________T

ps: I can't complain now as some "great leader" says animals also got problem. We got no right to complain. DAMN SUAY!!!

Chinese emo songs

Me: Hmmm..need to find newer songs to keep me awake since I've been listening to the same songs for MONTHS!!!

*click* *click* *click* Chinese songs.

T_T Ended up still listen to songs from 2010. But better than my previous ones which are from 2008 or 2005. I think everything kinda stop at 2010. After leaving USM, cause no more leeching from neighbors.

Now listening to like 20 songs repeatedly. Hope I don't get nightmare tonight.

ps: Ever since I started listening to all these songs to accompany me late at night, I can occasionally start crying for no reason and think all emo stuff. Boyfriend blames ENTIRELY on the songs. =P But then, sometimes I don't even listen to the lyrics cause too busy reading and typing. It's just hormones and stress la. Please don't blame my songs.

Confused I am

I may not be a very political person, I don't follow the news, when I see numbers, I yawn. But please enlighten me. Maybe I'm not smart enough for all these "smart talk".

First they talk about how there shouldn't be any demonstration to cause chaos and tarnish the peaceful country of ours.

Then when people say that it's for our freedom of speech, to stand up for our rights, they say "If you don't like it here, then go somewhere else."

So someone just asked you to get lost, naturally, you don't smile at them and say OKAY and jump onto a plane. You reason with them that "No, leaving is not an option because this is MY country too."

And they go on to say that "You complain so much, leave la. Your forefathers were here as miners and rubber tappers and craps like that."

So some may say bad words and stuff and these people will tell you "Everything you have now is given to you by a special party."

Those who disagree will point out that there's taxpayers money involve in this whole giving out freebies and building stuff.

And then I saw some who says, "Taxpayers' money cannot afford all these okay? It's from these special party."

This is when I got confuse, is she implying that it comes from the special party's pocket?

Fine she says there's lots of buildings, we are already very good and stuff. Does being very good mean you don't strive to be better? Does writing a good essay mean you do not correct your grammar when you noticed it is wrong? I don't know.

What I know is, these people are telling us, freedom of speech and our rights is very selective. If you are choosing what they are choosing, you have all the freedom and rights. HEY IT'S OUR RIGHT TO CHOOSE OKAY?

But if you choose something else that's different from theirs, GET OUT OF THIS PLACE LA SINCE YOU DON'T LIKE IT SO MUCH, complain so much!

-.-" Automatically the freedom thingie and the rights thingie are not there anymore.

If this continues and they get their way where all those who dislike the current situation leave, their future generation will grow up in an environment where there's a problem, you walk away. When there's something you don't like, you walk away. You don't walk up to them and tell them, it's not right to steal, you walk away cause you don't like what you see. You don't walk up to your students and tell them not to make noise in the class, you walk out of the class, since you don't like it what?

I don't know, I may get the message wrong. But that's really what I feel. So do I get the freedom to feel?

ps: Stop asking people to leave just because they don't like what they see. It's very immature and childish. Stop chasing people back to countries that they weren't even born in let alone set foot in. We are born here and we belong here. You don't complain or wish for a change in a place or someone you hate, you only wish for those you love. Do you anyhow wish an empty hut to be nicer and be decorated? YOU DON'T! Cause it's not yours! You only support and wish that someone you don't like or a place you hate to deteriorate.

So who is the one loving the country now? Loving the country is not the same as loving the government okay? It's two different things. Stop mixing it up.

Unwanted Gifts

Hi Dissertation,
Thank you for your belated Christmas and New Year gift of little pimples all over my face. Now take them back..I'm serious!!

Result of lack of sleep and....maybe I should change my pillow case.. what? I am busy okay?

ps: just found out that blogging through phone is kinda convenient hehehe

 

pps: This post took me almost a whole week to post it up!!! HAHAHA...I shall attempt to blog from phone more often. Just to see if it gets better.

 

Unending Battle

This battle with my dissertation has been going on for so long I'm losing my mind over it.

It's like after you submit a draft, you have to work on it even more because you don't know what is coming back to you and you need to edit it within a short period of time.

And it's like it'll never be good enough and you doubt your title till the last day.

And it starts to give me sleepless nights and lots of pimples.

T_T I want this to end quickly! I need to be happier.

Thank God I know HE is in control.

Confession of an Overweight Girl 2

Today's service at Terimee was much better. They were much friendlier compared to the one I met on Monday. And guess what? I have 16 sessions, not 8. YAY! (NOT!).

So yep, more to endure. It better show some results or imma eat somebody - not because of the money paid but because of the pain endured.

I still don't know why people would pay so much for this. -.-"


On a happier note, I am going for EYELASH PERMING with one of my favourite girl (Diana) cause we bought a RM18 voucher. I'm gonna have beautiful lashes for Christmas. =) And I have yet to finish my analysis for my lecturer tomorrow. Why do I tend to digress and be distracted?

Confession of an Overweight girl

So I've been trying to lose some weight. I ate less rice, I tried to exercise (but got lazy) and in the end I took up my sister's offer to go to Terimee. She bought a package many years back and now she transferred to me before it expires. So I went for one therapy.

AND I don't understand why would people pay so much to go to the centre, when they can exercise. I know I'm lazy but if I can take 2 hours of my time and spend RM2k, I think I would rather exercise. It's not like the treatments are super fun and relaxing. It's torturing! And I'd eat less a spoon of rice each day as long as I don't have to go for the treatments anymore.

I went for ONE treatment only though, so I may change my mind though I doubt it. And don't bother going to Terimee cause the lady in charge is very cocky and they messed up appointments. They seems lost. The girl who was doing my treatment OFF the wrong switch and the hot bed gets hotter when it's supposed to cool down already. I would have burnt alive!!! And I think really, the worst is the lady at the counter who takes down appointments and stuff. I don't like her. Thank God there's only 8 more sessions to go. Then I'll not go back!!!

Two weeks ago in Ping Ping's life

Many has happened for the past two weeks. In fact, so much has happened, it felt like it has been months since I last online properly. After my proposal presentation (which went well, thank you for your prayers and thank God), I came back to prepare for VBS.

Then I went off from Tuesday to Friday to help my lecturers out in their conference in Park Royal. So 3 days of non-stop eating buffet and running around Park Royal. We got to stay in this home stay which was pretty good and quite near to the hotel area. We missed our 2nd anniversary cause I was there in Park Royal the whole time. Anyways, after that, I came back, rested for half a day and then started preparing for VBS again.

The following Monday, I was in church doing the final touch up on crafts and some decoration. On Tuesday, it was a full blast decorating session and cutting frenzy cause Wednesday is THE DAY! From Wednesday to Saturday, I woke up at 7am to go to church for VBS. I have 6 kids with me this time around, 4 of which were VERY EXTREMELY QUIET and two of which were 5 years old, spoke little English AND SUPER CUTE!!! So I didn't have much problem taking care of them as I am quite fierce. =P Pao had nightmare though. She had one 5 year old who is very cheeky and hyper.

So after that, went out for furniture hunting, came back, rested a while and went for Alice's farewell ='(. Then got home, watch some television and fell asleep. Next day was church day, makan day and then went to get my Christmas present. Che got me a Samsung S3 for Christmas, a little early but I mad love it!!!! I am a happy girl. The boyfriend got one too so now we are having couple phone again.

This morning we decided to go to the stadium to jog and walk a bit. It has been a while. When we first got together it was all makan and movies. Then we became housemates and it was all show on computer and cooking. Now it's time to incorporate some exercising in our routine. =P He says it'll be a daily thing. I hope I can survive this!!! So my goal for this year is to lose 8kg before Christmas!!!

Wrong Emphasis

I was stopped by the librarian today for not following the dress code and wearing a knee length skirt. We are supposed to wear skirts below knee length, even for our convocation. So everyone looks like dumpling in our convocation.

Wore something like that cause I can finally wear knee length skirts instead of maxi skirts.

The last time I got stopped by a librarian because my sleeve was too short. I was wearing a t-shirt. I don't know how much longer she wants my sleeve to be.

Why put so much emphasis on things like this when the essential part of a library cannot be fulfilled? You lack lots of books related to the subjects in your university (like language and sociolinguistics), your system is always down and your librarian (some) doesn't know how to access the system except for the EXACT same method you printed on a paper. Remembered going to the librarian for help to search for dissertation. And all they said was, "There got guidelines, just follow like that." We said it won't show any result. And they dare to say, "Is it? But we only know how to do it like this." And they are in charge of the thesis section. T_T  If they are in charge of that section, don't they have any trainings to know how to guide students? Apart from that printed paper? Though we later on met someone who is really doing her job and knows what she is doing.

It seems like they put emphasis on things that are more minute and overlook the bigger picture.

And he asked me to go back, change and come back. It's 2pm for goodness sake. If it's not for the plenty of tables and air-cond, I wouldn't want to step in here to meet my friends. -.-" Not like you have books for me.

Phoneless day

More like phoneless for few hours only but phoneless day sounds more dramatic.

Anyway, nope, my cheapo touch screen smart phone is still alive. I just conveniently left it on my bed in my room at my apartment before rushing out to the library. I got to the library and realized something is missing.

I couldn't find a locker to keep my stuff (USM SO NEED MORE LOCKERS!!!) so I anyhow left my bag outside the library to rush in to claim the boyfriend's book I reserved. Cause this boy very smart, decided to borrow a book that NO ONE HAS EVER BORROWED BEFORE. Sampai the book masuk store room in another library OKAY?

So yep, then rushed out, checked my bag, thank God everything still here. Drag my stuff all the way to the new library and then face the dilemma of NO LOCKER AGAIN! Seriously? Luckily someone was leaving so I chup the locker and put my empty bag. Carry everything else into the library. Walked 4 storey high and still couldn't find my friend. Logged on to the computer and asked them on gmail. They are at 2nd floor. So now I got to grab my stuff and go reunite with people with phones!!!

At least I have my laptop!

I shall not forget my phone next time....if I can help it.

Treat others how you want to be treated

I'm sure all of us wants people to be nice to us, to be friendly, to be honest, to be kind, to lend a helping hand, to be caring and all the good things. Unless of course you prefer people to be rude to you, to lie to you, to be selfish then I think you are in a whole new level all together.

So, I was working at this place last year until end of May. It wasn't the nicest place to work at but it was okay in the beginning cause I always have cute students to entertain me. However, by the 3rd month, I knew this is the place I will only work for 1 year until my contract ends. I did not have any passion or desire to go on because some students are really monsters (but wayyyyy better than Sandra's), the boss aren't exactly helpful and honestly, the workload is way too much for the pay I got.

Anyways, throughout the whole working period, I've heard stuff about my boss, about how he treated the other staffs. I was pretty okay with him since he did not do what he did to them to me. So I just kept quiet and lent an ear to them and comfort them. One thing I didn't like was how I was asked to take up more than what I should, like combining two classes into mine without any helper and they are of different levels (never gonna send my kids to this place man).

So about 3 months after I stopped, I heard stories from my ex-colleague about how my ex-boss decided one day to only pay them half the salary for that month because the business wasn't good. I didn't know that the ASSISTANT teachers (we are assistants but we take up classes on our own, I am not sure how he define teachers) and clerks are responsible for bringing in new customers. I mean if I go to work, I did my job, I deserve to be paid, no? Am I missing anything here? It is bad enough that he only banks in cheque on the 5th of the following month, and the cheque will float for 3 days so technically, you only receive your salary on the 8th instead of 7th. But he has banked in, so...

Anyways, 3 months later (he owed them half of the salary of the 2nd month after I left), he has yet to pay them their salary with the excuse that the company is holding back the salary so that staff do not run away. WHAT THE CRAP IS THIS? I work, I get paid. If others gonna run, it's their problem. Why is it that I have to be responsible for what others do? Like how if others kept coming late to work and taking MC or just not turn up, I get my whole attendance allowance deducted because I applied for unpaid leave? You can jolly well deduct my salary based on the days I applied for leave but not the entire attendance allowance APART from my salary. Cause you approved my leave!! Damn nonsense right? Reason? Because other staff has been doing it quite often and it's a warning. FREAKING WARN THEM LA, WHY WARN THEM ON MY EXPENSE?

Ok, sorry for being so angry. I just find his excuse unacceptable. So now my ex-colleague is fed up with the boss and the work place and decided to resign by this week. She did not give a month's notice and the boss insist that she has to pay the company one month salary if she leaves. Fair enough since she should have given the one month notice. But he continued by saying that the girl has bad attitude because she didn't think of the company. If you want people to be loyal to your company and work for you, pay people for what's their worth. If you do not care for your staff, how you expect them to do likewise? I'm baffled by your excuses and logic.