SINGING AT 12.30AM BESTEST

Singing to BSB songs because I told Daniel to play songs I know how to sing. De-stress. Assignment due date coming, still not motivated and clueless. T_T

FEW MORE DAYS!!!

Start again

It's so hard to start again after I stop. Doing my assignment that is. Starting a brand new day doing assignment IS HARD...For me. I need the momentum.

FEW MORE DAYS TO FREEDOM!! Can't smell it yet. But it's coming.

Life of a Master student.

Working was mundane but studying is mad busy. T_T Been reading journals after journals, books after books (and watching Forensic Heroes 3) but still haven't finish doing my assignments. And I have only two weeks left to vomit something out to be handed in. Last minute work does kill!!!

Anyway, I will survive. As I am too lazy/busy to update my blog, twitter and everything else, I will make it an effort to at least post a recipe each week, whether the ones I've tried or have been meaning to try. Just to keep my blog alive. Recipes or craft ideas. Just in case I didn't cook.

Daniel and I bought these beautiful glasses from Daiso (RM5 for 3) to make dessert as we got pretty cheap oreos (RM2 per tube) over the weekend. Will be trying out some dessert soon. We have bananas, oreos, full cream milk (to whip them up), vanilla pound cake and some other biscuits. Daniel will create his own layered dessert. Will see how it goes.

Next up,
Baked mashed potato (like pie)

God is Faithful

I learn to see things in a different perspective (though I still whine and complain and get lazy all the time).

My God is a faithful God. He will not leave me nor forsake me. I just have to cling onto Him and trust and have faith that He knows best. That whatever I am going through, He knew it and has gone before me to prepare the way.

He knows best and I just have to obey and follow for He will make a way for me. I may feel tired, demotivated, disappointed at times in my life, asking if it's the right thing to do but no man can answer to that but God. He knows everything.

This is all a process and a trying period. I will survive this for I trust in my God.

Praise the Lord I got into USM for my Masters in English and Linguistics Studies! Studying and working part time...This will be my first time so bear with my whining at times.

Saying goodbye

This is what I wore for Farewell Night 

With my AWESOMEST FRIEND

With bii

Me

What I wore for BATI night. With Naqiah

With Sarah

Wink.

Ended my uni life with two dinner with people I hang out with most - my coursemates and PKA-ians. Both were okay. I kinda regretted not giving a speech during FN. Next time I graduate (in two years time) I will give. CONFIRM. I'll write one and read it if I must. Cause I'll be too scared. And I'll make sure what happened that day won't happen again.

I will be back, PKA-ians. (if you still want me to)

Shaking leg

Many has happened after my last letter to my lecturer (which still makes me feel dumb).

I skipped the test and class. Had an AWESOMEEEE time with Daniel in Redbox, had an okay Farewell Night. Gonna miss the people in PKA!!!

Then the girls (Emmoes) got me a BIRTHDAY CAKE!! Ping Ping is a very simple girl. She just need her birthday cake. =P But all is well now. I am resting for a few days before studying for exam.

Little Poupee my accessories blogshop is doing okay. I want to bring in more beautiful necklaces and rings!!!! Have to work harder in sourcing those. But overall, life has been great.

I need to get my blogging mojo back. Been lazy on that. Have a little project up in my head but still yet to do it. =) Need to stay focus!!!

And need to get a job. Cause I'm going to be jobless soon. I am currently a student. When I graduate, I'm no longer a student but a jobless young adult. teeheee...

Not very smart

I just emailed my lecturer to tell her if I can do my oral in the morning because I don't plan to go to class in the evening.

Not very smart eh?

To what she replied, "Sorry, but I have something else in the morning. It is better if you do it during class time."

So now not only I have to attend a class on my birthday, my lecturer knows I have the intention to skip class and I don't think she'll be very happy or very nice to me.

T_T My first mistake was falling sick on the day I'm supposed to do my oral.

2nd mistake, I emailed her to inform her, hoping that she will go all furious and say you don't have to do oral anymore. Mana tau she nicely tell me, "It's okay, you can do it on Thursday." /bangheadonthewall.

3rd, I emailed her again, throwing myself over the cliff by saying, "Can I do my oral on Thursday morning instead because it's my birthday and I actually did not want to go to class?" /bangheadonthewalldoublehard.

I iz the most kurang bijakz person on earth. Now I just throw stones at my boyfriend who had planned everything for me, bang my head twice on the wall and put salt in lecturer's eyes so she won't be liking me very much.

YAY.

I am tempted to just disappear into thin air.

Haibun - Journey to class

I take the same route to classes every morning since first year. Each day, the feeling is different because I take the route at different times of the day. I love the morning ones the most. I love the morning breeze and fresh air on my way to class. Morning dew are seen on the tip of the grasses and on the buds of the flowers.

Today, I leave my room earlier so that I can enjoy the walk while breathing in fresh air and admiring the beauty of God’s creation. Birds chirping as I walk past the grassy area. Flower petals and leaves bestrew the ground as though it is autumn. Then I come to the side of the road. That is when the life in a city set in. Cars zooming pass early in the morning. I almost forgot that I’m living in a city when I am surrounded with lakes, trees and beautiful flowers.

Walking to class,
Morning breeze blew in my face,
A refreshing start.

Birds chirping everywhere,
Flowers blooming, leaves falling,
It felt like autumn.

Each day I thank God,
His creation kept me at awe,
Every morning.

Cars zooming pass me,
Breaking the serenity,
City life set in.

I cross the road carefully as I do not want to offend any grumpy morning drivers. Walking at the pavement, I look up to the mountains far away and the big trees that are giving me shed. I am amazed at His creation once again. Morning rays sipped through the big trees, landing on my hands. It gives me some warmth from those morning breeze. The shadows of trees form on the ground. I look at its uniqueness. Each tree gives different shadows creating a beautiful natural design on the ground. Drops of morning dew landed on my hands. The trees sway to the morning breeze and drop some dews. I wipe off the dews.

Then the bus pulled up, with its loud engine, interrupting my quiet walk. Then the bus take off, leaving behind smokes from exhaust pipe, choking the students who are walking. I can see students walking fast. We are late for class. I quicken my steps as I walk pass chattering students.

Big friendly trees,
Overlook me from above,
Protect me from sun.

Drops of morning dew,
Landing on my hands and hair,
Little drops of water.

Bus running by,
Smokes coming out from the exhaust,
Choking all passer-by.

I reach my class. Yet another exciting journey I take to class. God’s creation and His power is beyond comprehension. I can only awe at His awesome power.

The Forgotten Ang Pow

"Hey, you got your ang pow from ah ma already?" I asked as I woke up on the second day of Chinese New Year.

It is unlike my grandmother to forget to give us ang pow on the first day of Chinese New Year. Every year, she would do it early in the morning as soon as she wakes up. This year she stayed over at my aunt's.

"Yes, I got mine. Why?" my sister asked half-heartedly. She was getting ready to go out again.

"I haven't got mine! Has che che got hers?" I asked again.

"I think so. Ah ma gave it last night while you were busy playing with the dogs. See, told you to stop playing with the dogs," she said, sounding ever so sarcastic.

"Are you sure?" I hurriedly got off my bed and went to my eldest sister's room.

"Che, you got your ang pow from ah ma already?" I asked even before she open her eyes.

"Yes," she answered in her sleep.

"She forgot mine already," I mumbled under my breath.

"Why girl? Why looking so sad?" asked mummy who just got into the room.

"Ah ma forgot my ang pow I think. I am too embarrass to tell her about it," I grumbled softly.

"I'll tell ah ma okay? I think she must have missed yours with so many grandchildren now," mummy said, hurriedly went to Ah ma's room.

From far, I could hear mummy say, "Ah Mak, you forgot to give Ah Girl ang pow."

A smile was formed on my face. I may have grown up but that moment, I felt like a small kid again, feeling excited to get my ang pow.

The super gory movie that I'll never watch

Last last Monday we were asked or even forced to watch this bloody (no pun intended) short clip which was taken out of some movie. I've decided not to taint my blog with the bloody clip.

So basically we were supposed to watch (yes, even if you spent most of your time watching your own finger) and then write what we saw. I don't think I can write fingers only though I have the urge to do just so.

What I saw was
That little boy was walking on the long unending road aimlessly, his steps were slow and unstable. He was probably tired from all the walking and even feel drowsy. He looked like he was going to faint, probably felt dizzy from the heat of the hot sun. He looked blur, weak and he was perspiring a lot. He was probably afraid and felt lost.

Then I saw blood dripping onto his white shoes. His steps quicken.

Then a car came behind him.
A man chased after him. The man was terrified, panicked and was worried upon what he saw. He tried to hug the boy and give him the support he needs. Trying to help him walk. Then the boy fainted and the man was worried. He felt lost and started screaming and shouting for help as he could not do anything. No one else was around.

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The next clip was in a restaurant or ballroom where a ceremony was to be held.
There was chattering and giggles everywhere. People were dressed nicely and they looked rich. People are talking loudly and laughing as they like. There are people who whispers and some who felt out of place and lost were nervous, playing with their hands and fingers. They are probably bored too since no one seems to be talking to them and they can't seem to join the conversation.

There are people giving toast and a man was burping and laughed at his own bad table manners. Then they showed jewelleries on the women to perhaps portray their status. A man was talking to the manager and then they took picture as though it's a reunion. Shortly, a speech was been given on the stage and those who has been chattering non-stop finally settled down quietly to listen. They were attentive and applause was given at the right time.

That's about all that I noticed.

Slipping Through My Fingers

Finally, they have all grown up. The two elder ones went to work. Even my baby girl drove back to her uni. I smiled as I saw her pulled away, remembering how she always gave me that 'heart attack' and 'disco-in-car' when she first started driving. I wipe those bread crumbs off the table and got ready for work.

As I drove to work, I recall those times when these little brats of mine refuses to wake up for class. Oh how I had to drag and pull them into the toilet, splash them with cold water to give them that morning wake up 'call' they need. They always manage to give me 1001 reasons why they should stay home instead of going to school. Those years of toiling to give them the best ever, all those are now over, very well over.

I can still hear their laughter and chattering every time the lift door opens at level 6. Though those are just memories, I cherish the times we once had. I laughed to myself, thinking of the silly things the baby will do just to make me smile. And how her two elder sisters will cringe at her silliness because they are just too 'grown-up' for it. Now, even she is too 'grown-up' for it.

I turned around to that familiar smell, that smell that got me salivating each time I walk passed that 'char siew' stall. There they were behind me with a plate of 'char siew', roasted to perfection. "Happy Mother's Day!" they echoed.

Tears streamed down my eyes.

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Do I really see whats in her mind
Each time I think I'm close to knowing
She keeps on growing


Slipping through my fingers all the time
Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
And save it from the funny tricks of time
Slipping through my fingers...

They may have grown-up, but they will forever be my mischievous babies.

http://www.elyrics.net/read/a/abba-lyrics/slipping-through-my-fingers-lyrics.html

*** This is purely for my assignment purpose. And no I don't have kids, I'm not even married yet. ***

Mr. Snake

Today marks the day when I bumped into a snake. Or at least a snake look-a-like.

Not gonna go tasik for my morning walks ever again.

But I'm happy I woke up at 8am to go for a 50 minutes walk. Wanted to go for an hour but I was caught by surprise with the presence of mr. snake/mr. snake look-a-like that I ran. Stadium it is then for my walks.

Thank you Mr. Biawak for being so huge and for moving when you saw me. Thank you Lord for protecting me.

ps: I was talking to God when it happened.

This is crazy

9 hours of class, out of room for 12 hours IS PURE MADNESS!!!!

One last sem. Up and down the hill, in and out of air cond rooms, from one class to another, cramming 5 subjects in my head. And I am taking 5 subjects only this semester. This means I'm having all 5 subjects in just one day.

Still, I got the energy to watch drama. =) To-do list is piling up though. *peers at the list* Can't wait to get them done and cancel one by one.

Dreaming much?

One of those dreams that you do not want to wake up.

Or perhaps I'm just tired.

Sometimes I wish this dream is real. It feels real to me. Some is saying that it's not a dream, some is saying, don't put your hopes high.

Well, if dream is the best I can get, I shall treasure and hold on to that.

Each time I feel that I'm happily floating in the air, I'll get snap back to reality.

Welcome home, they say. Welcome home.

ps: On the contrary, I'm HAPPY to go home. Away from home for.......2 weeks *hide* don't throw rocks at me, look at their poor lil face, it hurts them as much as it hurts me.

Home + Family = ♥

Steamboat craving satisfied

*rubs tummy* chicken ball overdose.

Laughter overdose.

Fear overdose (of guards that will ronda bangunan).

Sleep deprived.

But still, ♥.

It was random, but it happened. For once.

Now I got something crazy that I've done in uni life that I can fill in the blanks.

Thanks for the four other awesome people who joined me in this craze.

Final year

Insane!! I am a final year student!!! It's crazy.

Did a lot the previous holiday.
- Attended camp
- Worked for the first time
- Went for planning retreat
- Retracted application to Mexico
- Translated law text- real one
- Volunteered in Door of Hope
- Volunteered for Heritage TreaShaw Hunt
- Shopped - a lot
- Camwhored- a lot too
- Lost 3 kg and gained 2kg back T_T
- Came back to uni - wrestled with timetable, classes, commitments, fun time.

Looks like it's gonna be a great final year. I'm beginning to miss USM. Each time I walk pass DK Foyer, I'm walking pass as a 3rd year. It felt like it was just yesterday when I walked through this place, looking lost and now I'm in my 3rd year? I will definitely miss USM when I leave. Gonna enjoy each moment I have here now. =)

Don't get me started on my baby lizard story or you people are gonna call me drama queen and chicken again. It was drama alright?

Sem 2 Year 2 is over!!!

Over with exams!!! But room is still in a hugeeee mess. Need to clean up cause I'll be going back tomorrow.

Boohoo, lazy, drama first, later only pack la. Hee hee...

=) Now say YAY!!! Sem 2 Year 2 IS FINALLY OVER. Say hi to 2 months of holidays + Camp Cam. Lots of interesting things lining up for me. =)

Waiting for the girls to come back and bring back the bubbly me. Ok la, in uni also very bubbly.

Wan Daun, Tree Mor

Hehe, one down, three more to go. =)

Can't wait for exams to be over but it means I'll be in my third year. *pulls hair* Insane!!

It felt like I just entered USM okay? So fast, two years already? *checks wrinkles in the mirror*

I'm so sorry to all my juniors. I'm sorry because I'll be a lousy senior. I hope I won't leave USM before trying Mamu Burger which according to his regular customers that it's a MUST try. I'm not a big burger fan so I managed to slide my way out each time.

I was just relating this to a senior. It feels so surreal that I'll be a senior soon. A third year at that. A third year who just took a wrong bus and got sent back to where she boarded the bus. A senior who still goes to meeting earlier cause she misread/mishear the time. A senior who goes to wrong meeting place. A senior who enters class not by knowing the classes but by peeping in to see if her coursemates are around.

Sometimes it felt like I take so little effort to be less blur. I just blur my way through and soon I'll be in third year. By God's grace, I'm blessed to go through each year with more and more improvements (not grade wise though =( Will try harder)

Apparently my line is bad enough that I cannot upload photos so, bear with me. When I'm home, I'm usually too lazy to update blog. Need.to.stop.this.bad.habit.

A packed but exciting sem break to come. =) At the meantime, study a.

You thought it won't hurt anymore

but somehow, it still does.

I guess it's better to leave it alone and it'll heal, eventually.

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Weather is insane, mind not right, mood not here, time all wrong. Haih, not a very good study break.

*Note to self: GO LIBRARY TOMORROW MORNING!

Awesome Friday and Loved Saturday

AGM was funny, Combined Easter Celebration was awesome!! Diana, Yi Lin, Yi Lin's friend June and Su Ling came over. At first I was worried that they might not enjoy it but the drama was so awesome they actually had fun.

I was glad when they talked about the drama after it was over when I had the time to talk to them. You know like the usual discuss-bout-movie-after-get-out-of-cinema thing. If it's not interesting, you wouldn't even bother right? I tried to explain the story to them again so as to make sure they get the message. Then we went for supper at Kayu. Diet plan goes down the drain.

No pictures because my line is super lousy. =(

Anyways, Saturday began a lil gloomy with me having lunch alone, walk to library alone and saw Saranghe there, alone. Then do my work and since it's my first time perhaps in library on Saturday, I didn't know it closes at 4pm. So I packed and came back, napped, did a lil more work. Then mum and che decided to come over and fetch me for dinner.

Loved max. Pampered max. *happy* Awesome friends and family. Despite feeling down with my assignments, I feel loved, I really do. =)