Nobody likes exam

When I was a student, I didn't like exam mainly because I will then have to study to be able to answer the question. My inability to stuff everything into my head will result in me having to find ways to hide my report card.

Now I'm a teacher and I don't like exam just the same. Cause setting exam question is so tedious!!! Even if you are just transferring it from some book. I almost got my eyeballs popped out preparing exam questions. And I'm just doing for Form 1,2,3. It's crazy. I'm tired.

Lack of sleep, extended hours in front of the computer. This is SO NOT FUN!

Back to work. Everybody hates exam, even the teachers.

Counting down

Wah, I did not blog for more than a month. Damn power /flips hair. I kept doing this /flip hair thing with Daniel, even when I'm half asleep. He usually wakes up at like 7.30 am and by 8.10am, he'll be talking to me when I'm half asleep. When he praise me, I'll flip hair and I'll do it even when I'm half asleep.

So basically I wake up by 8.30am (if I can steal a few more winks) and pack his lunch. Then see him off before I go back to sleep or come online.

My daily routine is
1. Wake up, pack his lunch (he has to heat it up himself because I want to sleep)
2. See him off, online
3. Cut the ingredients to cook and then of course cook.
4. Take my bath.
5. Pack my dinner and eat my lunch.
6. Off to work for 8 hours.
7. Reach home at 10.30pm, he washes the dishes (if I'm too tired or I have other things to do)
8. Laze around watching shows on laptop, play games or talk to each other, counting down our working days.
9. Sleep till next morning.

The cycle repeats itself for 4 days (Tuesday to Friday) and on Saturday, as I'm working early, I'll just wake up, bathe, see him off, eat breakfast, tapao lunch and go to work.

I kind of like my job if not for the time. I kind of like the kids if not for the SUPER noisy ones. (Thank God Miss Leila is back and she's taking all the noisy ones with her.)

Thank God for this job nevertheless. Gives me RM1.2k and I don't sit around rotting or spending money in the malls. It's not too bad a job. Just a little lazy.

So looking forward to Bangkok with Daniel!!!! Began to write down what I want to buy there. Daniel has a shopping bug in him too. I like! One more month to go.

God is Faithful

I learn to see things in a different perspective (though I still whine and complain and get lazy all the time).

My God is a faithful God. He will not leave me nor forsake me. I just have to cling onto Him and trust and have faith that He knows best. That whatever I am going through, He knew it and has gone before me to prepare the way.

He knows best and I just have to obey and follow for He will make a way for me. I may feel tired, demotivated, disappointed at times in my life, asking if it's the right thing to do but no man can answer to that but God. He knows everything.

This is all a process and a trying period. I will survive this for I trust in my God.

Praise the Lord I got into USM for my Masters in English and Linguistics Studies! Studying and working part time...This will be my first time so bear with my whining at times.

Start all over

Being a teacher for one month has taught me quite some stuff.

1. Kids are not always that cute. Sometimes you'll get high blood pressure.

2. But not all kids are that bratty.

3. I don't know that much English as I thought I knew. I have to revise all the phonics and grammar because all these while, the only teacher to my grammars and pronunciation are my ears. If it sounds good, it's good.

4. I have to turn all these laziness, negative emotions of fear and anxiety and stress to motivation. This is not just a job. This is a moulding and learning process. He knows I need it.

=) It's a beautiful Friday. I'm looking forward to work. (Yes, the blue dragged too long but at least the sun is shining now.)

Extended blues

Just so you know, my Tuesday blues have officially extended till Thursday. Barely one month of working and I'm having blues EVERY SINGLE DAY. Need to be more motivated!!!!


Lazy... *nua*

Dreams

I've always wanted to be an editor or a journalist. Then when I finished with my degree, I decided to settle down as a teacher purely because there's not much opportunity here as editor or journalist. Most of the jobs are in KL.

Now I'm having a second thought. Seeing my friends getting what they wanted, I'm thinking if the path I chose is the right one. Should I be working or should I continue studying?

God will make a way and He will show me my path. At the mean time, I'll just have to do my job as a teacher well. 4 classes for me today. I'll be okay.

The first thing I'll buy when I get my salary is

A FREAKING PAIR OF CONTACT LENSE. I NEED TO DRESS UP.

=( and take pictures..to make me feel better.

I thought I just dislike working in office but the truth is, I think I just dislike working.

Thank God there's cute people at the centre who'll make me smile. That helps to ease my laziness.

Now I have to drag my sorry feet out to wait for bus. Working life sucks.

Why am I so quiet lately?

Not in a real sense but in a blog world sense. I've been working for two weeks now and it feels surreal. I may be lazy to go to work sometimes (still a brat at heart) but I always wake up on time to cook lunch and dinner before I go to work.

I am learning from this job and I kind of enjoy it. It is hard to handle kids but I gain my confidence from them. I love being called Teacher in a weird way. I am glad I took this path instead of jumping straight into the adults path because I believe I learn so much more now than before.

Kids nowadays learn words that are so hard, they got their teacher looking for dictionary. Either that, or my English is very weak. But I am learning, I am learning each day, from these kids and also to further help myself. I am happy with my job and I hope I will be every single day until I resign.

That's why I've been quiet. Because I've been busy. Haven't been taking pictures lately and I so need to get my contact lenses. Wait till I get my salary. Cause I need to dress up so badly!!!