Caught in between

I love teaching because I find it more enjoyable and less boring. Working in an office can get rather repetitive and routined in my opinion. Hence I chose to teach.

However, I am also someone who dislikes speaking in front of the crowd and be in the center of attention. Give me a class with 20 students, I am fine. Give me one with 200, I get so worried before the class!

One plus point is that you basically work most when you are teaching. After teaching, there are of course lessons to plan and files to complete but it is still bearable (not sure of other institutions but I think it's the same). And if you have a fun class, the time passes so quickly.

Ok, I think I will still choose teaching over other things but maybe not teaching 200 students. T_T After next sem I hope I will grow so much more from the experience.

Being the youngest

So my sister was analysing this and I find her analysis very much biased. Hence I cannot just sit by and not do anything right? =P

I will do it like how she did it okay? We will start with my eldest sis.

First
Natural Leader (check). I think this should be generally true for all eldest unless their age group is very small.
High Achiever. (check and uncheck) For her work, she is a high achiever. For her studies, not so.
Organized. (Er....no? not at all...see her room for evidence to support)
On-time. (HAHAHHAHA like NEVER?)
Know-it-all. (Act like know-it-all counted?)
Bossy. (Not really.)
Responsible. (To a certain extend. Responsible for the family yes. For minor things, sometimes not so.)
Adult-pleaser (Oh yeah...anak-cucu mithali. Spoil market for us.)
Obeys the rules. (Nah, don't think so.)

Middle
Flexible. (It depends. Definitely more flexible than I.)
Easy-going. (Yea, she is quite bo chup one. But she tend to mind her own business more so you don't really deal with her much.)
Social. (Like what?Socialable? Er...not really?)
Peacemaker. (As I said she is the type who bo chup. She doesn't talk much so she doesn't stir up conflicts but she doesn't solve either.)
Independent. (Yes.)
Secretive. (Again, back to the part on her personality of being the quieter ones so yes.)
May feel that life is unfair. (Nope, don't think so.)
Strong negotiator. (She minds her own business so there's nothing much to negotiate ahhaha.)
Generous. (Depending on situation but I think my eldest sister is more generous. Second sister gives when she has to.)

Last
Risk-taker. (Nope, I am the worst! I hate chances and challenges.)
Outgoing. (I think so. Put me side-by-side with my second sis and I win hands down.)
Creative. (I am alright I guess but eldest sister is more creative.)
Self-centered. (Sometimes. But I think I care a lot for the family as well so I don't think of myself only.)
Financially irresponsible. (I don't think so. I save as much as I can and I don't really spend.)
Competitive. (At home yes. I always want to win. But when it comes to the real deal I prefer to be on the backseat.)
Bored easily. (Oh yeahhh...and get distracted easily too.)
Likes to be pampered. (er...who doesn't?)
Sense of humor. (I think I have sense of humor. Just don't light my fire.)

Hmm...I think this is a fairer analysis compared to the one here.

Eyelid Stitching

I have heard so many people doing it and apparently it doesn't hurt.

I just read about a blogger who did it for RM3k to 4k and that can last for 10years. I have been contemplating but if I were to do it, I must first lose weight. Lol, cause lose weight is almost painless (or bearable pain) and it is free. That also can I cannot do it, don't even think about doing such beautification procedure.

But I might consider....one day....Not that I have problem going out as I am, poor boyfriend. I used to be much more vain and put more effort. Now I am just wearing t-shirts and 3 quarter pants when I go out with the boyfriend. Downgraded. Speaking of which, I shall put more effort.

For now, I'm going to get the lace double eyelid tape.

Job searching woes

I don't know what I want.

I am about to receive my Masters of Arts in English Language and Linguistic Studies which will come in handy if I become a teacher/lecturer. But then I don't feel like being one after all these studying and being a part time teacher.

So now I'm lost, I don't know what job I should apply for and I'm just stuck here staring at websites on job offers.

Need.to.get.a.job!

Confused I am

I may not be a very political person, I don't follow the news, when I see numbers, I yawn. But please enlighten me. Maybe I'm not smart enough for all these "smart talk".

First they talk about how there shouldn't be any demonstration to cause chaos and tarnish the peaceful country of ours.

Then when people say that it's for our freedom of speech, to stand up for our rights, they say "If you don't like it here, then go somewhere else."

So someone just asked you to get lost, naturally, you don't smile at them and say OKAY and jump onto a plane. You reason with them that "No, leaving is not an option because this is MY country too."

And they go on to say that "You complain so much, leave la. Your forefathers were here as miners and rubber tappers and craps like that."

So some may say bad words and stuff and these people will tell you "Everything you have now is given to you by a special party."

Those who disagree will point out that there's taxpayers money involve in this whole giving out freebies and building stuff.

And then I saw some who says, "Taxpayers' money cannot afford all these okay? It's from these special party."

This is when I got confuse, is she implying that it comes from the special party's pocket?

Fine she says there's lots of buildings, we are already very good and stuff. Does being very good mean you don't strive to be better? Does writing a good essay mean you do not correct your grammar when you noticed it is wrong? I don't know.

What I know is, these people are telling us, freedom of speech and our rights is very selective. If you are choosing what they are choosing, you have all the freedom and rights. HEY IT'S OUR RIGHT TO CHOOSE OKAY?

But if you choose something else that's different from theirs, GET OUT OF THIS PLACE LA SINCE YOU DON'T LIKE IT SO MUCH, complain so much!

-.-" Automatically the freedom thingie and the rights thingie are not there anymore.

If this continues and they get their way where all those who dislike the current situation leave, their future generation will grow up in an environment where there's a problem, you walk away. When there's something you don't like, you walk away. You don't walk up to them and tell them, it's not right to steal, you walk away cause you don't like what you see. You don't walk up to your students and tell them not to make noise in the class, you walk out of the class, since you don't like it what?

I don't know, I may get the message wrong. But that's really what I feel. So do I get the freedom to feel?

ps: Stop asking people to leave just because they don't like what they see. It's very immature and childish. Stop chasing people back to countries that they weren't even born in let alone set foot in. We are born here and we belong here. You don't complain or wish for a change in a place or someone you hate, you only wish for those you love. Do you anyhow wish an empty hut to be nicer and be decorated? YOU DON'T! Cause it's not yours! You only support and wish that someone you don't like or a place you hate to deteriorate.

So who is the one loving the country now? Loving the country is not the same as loving the government okay? It's two different things. Stop mixing it up.

Baking from scratch

Enjoying baking so much more now that I have Thermomix!!!

And I enjoy learning new things about baking. Like how my muffin will be dense when I overmix it. =P And I learn and I'll improve next time. The good thing is that it's edible. Just not as nice as I wish it would be but it's edible. So I improve from here!!! =) Got to prepare the wet ingredients before adding the dry ones.

And with my baking, I get great breakfast!!!! =) Happy!!!

Can't wait to finish up my whole dissertation and then spend more time reading and be in the kitchen. I have decided that nobody can help me if I don't help myself. So need to prepare an exercise regime and timetable. Do it while I'm still young!

2013 Resolution - Be Happy and Be Healthy :- Physically, Mentally and Spiritually!

Unresolved thoughts

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Goals until end of 2012

Pao and I set our goals while we were at the training just now. Mainly because our 90 days challenge ends on the 31st of December so it makes an apt goal to achieve before 2012 ends.

We will......

Attend the meetings and trainings diligently so that we are qualified for the 90 days challenge.

and

We will.........

try to do at least 4 demo (praying that two will bear fruits!!!) Uni has been crazy, duties are coming in, it's really hard especially now I have to purposely wake up early and try not to sleep too late (lest I can't wake up) for morning run and I feel that day has been cut shorter for me. But I know that I have a GREATTTT God. And I can do ALL things through Him who strengthens me. So I shall persevere, knowing that He is with me and I will be okay at the end of the day.

34 days till the end of December!!!! =) We shall end this year on a beautiful note.

Blogs have been boring. I will try to update more next week. I have to sacrifice Marshall Burger's opening okay??? It's not easy, just bear that in mind, it's not easy.

Wrong timing

Like when I feel like taking a nap but I just washed my hair.


So I decided to continue doing my work and maybe sneak in a short reading time. Been reading on this book on the footbinding custom which is really an eye opener.

It's called Snow Flowers and the Secret Fan. There's a lot of description of the process and what happens until they got married. I've yet to finish the book. Trying to finish up as many books as I can before I go crazy in BBW book fair in December. The boyfriend is bringing me!!!! *hops around*

Updates on Hatyai will be done soon, maybe on Saturday or Friday evening. =)