I put the RM5 a day plan on hold

This week, that plan is not going to be carried out. Actually once in a while I break that pantang la. I got some money from aunt last week so I decided to treat myself this week.

Ok, I lied.


It's actually cause I want to eat spaghetti. And also cause I bought kueh. And the most sinful thing, JUNK FOOD!!!!

Cannot upload photo. I bought Nyam Nyam, my childhood favourite. And also CLOUD 9!!!!!! I'm on cloud 9 now.

Another reason to celebrate, my minor paper's lecture finish already!!! Two weeks no need go English lecture!!! Like SO COOL CAN? This shows that I should start studying. Especially if I have any thoughts of going to the Nuffnang Halloween Party. Waiting for Pao's reply.

It's as though I am in another time frame altogether

I was standing in the middle of the foyer. I can see uni students walking about, talking with friends, entering their class or leaving their class. They all seemed to be so happy. So belonged.

There I was, standing amongst the crowd. It almost feel unreal. It almost feel like I am in a different time frame altogether. Like the movie Secret. It feels that way. Like no one realises my existence and no one cares whether I exist or not.

I guess I'm too used to having a gang of friends with me that when I am finally alone, I feel lost, I feel abandoned, I feel lonely. I had a lonely lunch at Cafe Mahasiswa today and it felt right. I hate that feeling. The feeling of being alone but it just seemed right. Like that's me. And I hate it. I have always known I am not a loner. I can be a lone ranger, but I hate to be a lone ranger. That I can do things on my own but I want people around at times.

It's already week 14 and I'm still like this. It has been almost 4 months since I entered this uni but everything seemed so new, so alien to me. Why do I think so much? I don't know. But I know I am missing them.

Why I so pandai blush?

I blush when I am hot, when I am cold and when I am as usual, shy or embarassed. Today my lecturer forgot to switch on the air-cond I think and I was very hot la. I feel my face burning.

So when I go out to do my presentation, my lecturer asked if the air-cond is not on. I thought why now only feel hot ar? I feel hot damn long ago already. I thought air-cond spoiled ma.

Then when I walked out of the room, one of my friends asked why my face so red. And then they claimed that probably my lecturer realized the air-cond was not switched on because she saw my red red cheek. Eh, possible leh.

My red cheek very obvious one. I blush a bit only people know already. I cannot "wan sek" (cari makan) with my face already. Cannot hide my feelings. T.T Yay, Monday is over. Tomorrow got English test- Job Interview. No eyes see.

I hate it!!!

I think this is not the first time I say I hate being in the university. I got back to my room just to find someone, A, sitting at my table, with her legs on my table, her luggage at my side of the room, watching drama. It's not that I am a selfish chao ginna who cannot share with people. But it's always without my permission.

I find it rude. Really. I am angry cause her friend, B, did not even tell A to NOT use my side of the room since well, A is not exactly my friend and it's rude cause I'm not around. B allowed Ato leave A's things all crowding MY side of the room. Why MY side of the room? Not something I need to see when I am so sad to be back. I HATE IT!!!!!!! Can everyone just LEAVE ME ALONE?? I mean it's ok if I am alone, just don't treat me like I have no feelings. Give me back my privacy! I feel like I don't belong here.

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I'm glad I brought back my orange SGGS 2007 organizer. Man, how can I ever gonna love someone else more than these girls I met in high school? Now I know why despite having pain in the ass teachers back in high school, I still somewhat enjoy going to school (I say somewhat cause I skipped school a lot. XD Hypocrite extreme).

I was such a clown last time. I still am now, just that my clown-li-ness (bad English so what? -.-)only appear when I am with them la. Why ar? Because we are in the same circus (they are clowns too).

Anyway, read this. Why I like that last time?

sing to the tune of Que Sera Sera.

When I was just a chao gina (naughty kid),
I asked my lao bu (mum),
What will I be?
Well I buay (sell) tau chiu,
Will I stay sui (pretty),
Here's what she said to me.

Que sera sera,
Whatever will be, will be,
The future is not ours to see,
Que sera sera,
Whatever will be, will be.

Everyone is going back

T.T Ju-Yen will leave at 2.30 tomorrow, Shan Shan will leave in the morning, Jas Lyn will go back Kedah, Cheng Ling and Wan Mei Johore, Annie TAN Kelantan (Chieh, tarak meet up pun). EVERYONE LEAVING T.T

I will rindu you all many many. Come back quick quick and we play bowling for RM2 pergame *one game can already, old already, boh lat*. And we should go ronda Penang for like one whole day. I cannot drive, I bayar petrol. T.T

I OLEDI RINDU EVERYONE!!!!!!! *pendamkan perasan*

One of my biggest weaknesses

is to be overly sensitive!!!!!!! I think too much and I can't control it. I hate it so much but it seems to live in me. I automatically do it all the time and sometimes, that person might not be at the wrong *sometimes they are seriously pain in the ass la*.

Be contented. i'll try.

Tonight I'll be living-room-keeper again. Hope the ants won't bite me anymore. Sipek painful and itchy. T.T

2nd time blogging in Shan's house.

Last year in August, we gathered at her house for her birthday party. This year I am here to tumpang her car to go bowling instead. XD

And she is bathing AGAIN. XD We will be out bowling later. I miss them!!!!!!!She is back. Bye