I AM LOST!!

I know how I said I won't mind if people do not comment as long as they read. I still feel the same but these two days, when I am in another mood swing, I logged on into Nuffnang but no records was found. I checked my Page Rank and it's N/A.

I began to question the purpose of writing a blog. Do I still love to write that much? I began to question my ability to write and to capture people's attention to read them. There's so many things happening around me now that I don't know, I just feel lost. I don't know what course I am suppose to fill in when I get my result. I don't know if journalism is right for me anymore.

I don't even know if I like to be a journalist. I don't even know if I am capable. I just feel that right now, all I can think of is running away, just like how i used to. Not running away from home, just running away from reality. I have lost the enthusiasm I had the last two days. I guess a person shall not be too excited about something for they will lose their excitement twice as fast.

I was thinking bout terminating my blog but I am not going to do that yet because I am afraid I'll regret. I always do and 1 year ++ memories is not suppose to end up like this. I guess I'm just being emo right now. I used to write because I love to write. Now, I don't know anymore. I don't know what I want and what people wants from me.

ps: And I think it's because of the paid post I wrote. Wrote a lot without copying and I really write them with feelings. I mean my sister ask me to simply write but I did not. Still kena tendang balik. =( Feel so unappreciated. Luckily they approved the bed one cause I really really really love the bed one.