My choice of weekends

Cancelled my Saturday class today and I am actually enjoying the day off. FINALLY!!!

Teaching makes me feel good and bad at the same time. I enjoy it when my students makes me laugh and treats me like one of them. But I still need them to respect me. I don't want them to be afraid of me. I just need respect.

Anyway, last week was slightly worse than the second as I actually scolded my students 3 times. Twice for one class and once for another. And I hate that feeling. It makes me feel like crap. I hate scolding them. I believe English should be fun and there should be no need for me to raise my voice since they are already old enough. But no, they have to prove me wrong.

I hope next week will be better though I dread entering the class I scolded twice cause....they are good kids, but sometimes...just sometimes...And I hate to have that feeling cause they are good kids. I need to pull myself together.


NO.SCREAMING.NEXT.WEEK.

I can use some Saturdays off you know? If my students one day decide not to continue with the tuition, I might just grab that offer. Until I get my own place and maybe work in USM (future plan). Going to students' house for tuition is time consuming and tiring.

Anyways, to a great weekend ahead. <3

Monday blues

ARE REAL! And they HIT HARD.

I was so down the whole day except when I was in class (thank God for mischievous who are just well..kids..). Now when I can go back, it is raining heavily. Don't think I am able to get out of here any time soon. =( Need to wait until the rain stops.

Monday, please go away.

Week 3

Entering week 3 in a few hours time and already dreading the lesson planning part.

No life I tell you. NO LIFE.

I don't care. I am going out on Tuesday nights or Wednesday nights. Just go shopping and buy something nice for myself. I need that!

I don't go out a lot but I would really love to sit down and not have to worry about my slides or exercises or lesson plans. T_T And they say it is normal for the 1st year. SAY WHAT??? Means I have another....11 months to go? And knowing myself full well, I will still edit and change my slides here and there even if I am repeating the same course next semester.

Need.to.FIND.a.HOBBY.to.KEEP.me.SANE.


God, I not very demanding one. I just ask for one thing la..after all these hard work, can you grant me weight loss? Ok ma hor my request?

Week 2

It's just the 2nd week working here. However, it feels like I've been working for years. It's not that I don't like my students or I don't know the things that I am doing or that I don't like doing what I do, it's just....it just feels long.

Worse is that I only have 15 hrs a week, which is much lesser than my friends. So I have lesser excuse to complain. My grandma said that I am a super woman. Cause I can go to work, come back, go for meetings and all. I can also go straight to the hairdresser and get my hair done after work. Maybe that's why. I've been running around and not resting after work.

I would wish to rest if I don't have to prepare my lessons after work. T_T It will get better. Pay day will come and it will get better. No wonder people pamper themselves after getting their pay. Can I take RM50 and pamper myself too? I need a new laptop, like NOW! Okay, maybe I can wait a few weeks more.

So back to work. Each class I enter, I must remind myself that it's for the future!